Do you ever struggle with not being able to stop eating?
Yes, this was my behavior for the last 20 years of my life! And I didn’t want to live this way anymore; I just didn’t know how to stop. I tried so many things to make it go away. I tried new diets, diet pills, making promises to myself, to God. I would buy smaller clothes and then set a date to fit in them. None of this worked! It just kept me in a vicious cycle for years. I felt defeated, I hated myself, and I missed many social events, including my children’s school activities and sport events.
It took me many years later to finally admit that I needed help! I went to a therapist who I heard specialized in the area of eating disorder. The first day I walked into her office, I said. “Look, I need a food plan. I can’t stop binge eating.” She looked at me and said, “I will not give you a food plan but we are going to find out what happened to you.” I was NOT happy when she said this! You are not going to let me do it my way. But for the first time I realized my way wasn’t really working.
I started to let go and it was a process…not an easy process, not a fast process, but a healing process. It was so worth it!
For the first time I looked at the pain in my life and learned to identify where it came from. I had to let go of all my food rules and learn to trust myself.
Yesterday was Easter and you know what, I didn’t binge on candy or food! And it wasn’t until I was going to bed that night that I had realized it! Wait, I’m not sick from binge eating on candy? I didn’t even touch my kid’s candy? It was the first time in 20 years that I didn’t binge on Easter.
I thank God for this! He gave me the strength to walk through a much-needed healing process. But I also had to be willing to do the work!
I hope everyone reading this will get the help they need if they are struggling in any area of their life.