Who Am I?

Who Am I?

Who Am I? 150 150 Paula

who am i

WHO AM I?

Friends~ Have you ever struggled with your IDENTITY?

Have you ever had the thought what is wrong with me? Why can’t I stop this behavior? Why do negative thoughts constantly run across my mind? Why do I sit back and judge other people? I just want to like myself! Let’s try to look at it this way. Instead of asking what is wrong with me, let’s ask ourselves what has happened to me, that I am not capable of stopping this behavior or thinking pattern that I don’t like. Now give that some food for thought. It’s NOT always about what is wrong with you, most of the time; it is what happened to you.

What do you mean? Sometimes we could have been a victim and not even recognized it. You may have experienced things in your life that stripped you from being whole and stole your identity. This could be that another person has wounded you or has spoken things over your life that is not true. Then we walk around believing these things and it causes us to start to act out in this belief system that we now carry like a HEAVY WEIGHT. Once this happens to a person we are now incapable of growing into the person God created us to be. Instead of walking around as an individual who is created in the image of Christ, we walk around carrying the labels of the person who wounded us!! In reality when someone wounds us, it is not a reflection of who we are, but a reflection of the other person’s character. Depending on the person’s experience these labels can be deeply rooted inside of them. This is the number one reason why most people struggle with self-destructive behaviors and tormenting voices in their head.

We live in a world where there are many broken people that are continuing to hurt others through their own brokenness. Many children are being born to parents who are deeply wounded themselves. They have issues going on that have never been addressed. Then the children get the side affects of the behavior. It is a vicious cycle you see all around us in this world today. Thank God for His healing power and the forgiveness He offers through His son Jesus, or we would all be doomed.

For years I walked around not knowing what was wrong with me. I just knew that I had an eating disorder that controlled me. I had negative voices going through my head all the time. I wanted to change, but didn’t know how. I asked God for twenty years to take it away and it still didn’t go away. I would pray to God, but still the torment in my head was there and I was still bound to my addiction.   He did give me the grace that I needed to get through the day-to-day life. But there came a point in my journey where I was “desperate” enough to do whatever it took to be free from this miserable life. This is the point where I told God, “I surrender to you! I will give you everything, my life, my will and my coping mechanism. Please heal me and deliver me from this addiction.”

 

God’s truth

“ If you are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies. Do good to those who hate you. Pray for the happiness of those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you.” (Luke 6:27-28)

Reflection

Please make a list of everyone in your life that has wounded you at some points. Ask God to bring to your memory everyone that He wants you to forgive.

Is it hard to believe that God loves you, because of how many people have hurt you in your life?

You deserve a life of FREEDOM!!!

Paula Jauch