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Who Am I?

Who Am I? 150 150 Paula

who am i

WHO AM I?

Friends~ Have you ever struggled with your IDENTITY?

Have you ever had the thought what is wrong with me? Why can’t I stop this behavior? Why do negative thoughts constantly run across my mind? Why do I sit back and judge other people? I just want to like myself! Let’s try to look at it this way. Instead of asking what is wrong with me, let’s ask ourselves what has happened to me, that I am not capable of stopping this behavior or thinking pattern that I don’t like. Now give that some food for thought. It’s NOT always about what is wrong with you, most of the time; it is what happened to you.

What do you mean? Sometimes we could have been a victim and not even recognized it. You may have experienced things in your life that stripped you from being whole and stole your identity. This could be that another person has wounded you or has spoken things over your life that is not true. Then we walk around believing these things and it causes us to start to act out in this belief system that we now carry like a HEAVY WEIGHT. Once this happens to a person we are now incapable of growing into the person God created us to be. Instead of walking around as an individual who is created in the image of Christ, we walk around carrying the labels of the person who wounded us!! In reality when someone wounds us, it is not a reflection of who we are, but a reflection of the other person’s character. Depending on the person’s experience these labels can be deeply rooted inside of them. This is the number one reason why most people struggle with self-destructive behaviors and tormenting voices in their head.

We live in a world where there are many broken people that are continuing to hurt others through their own brokenness. Many children are being born to parents who are deeply wounded themselves. They have issues going on that have never been addressed. Then the children get the side affects of the behavior. It is a vicious cycle you see all around us in this world today. Thank God for His healing power and the forgiveness He offers through His son Jesus, or we would all be doomed.

For years I walked around not knowing what was wrong with me. I just knew that I had an eating disorder that controlled me. I had negative voices going through my head all the time. I wanted to change, but didn’t know how. I asked God for twenty years to take it away and it still didn’t go away. I would pray to God, but still the torment in my head was there and I was still bound to my addiction.   He did give me the grace that I needed to get through the day-to-day life. But there came a point in my journey where I was “desperate” enough to do whatever it took to be free from this miserable life. This is the point where I told God, “I surrender to you! I will give you everything, my life, my will and my coping mechanism. Please heal me and deliver me from this addiction.”

 

God’s truth

“ If you are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies. Do good to those who hate you. Pray for the happiness of those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you.” (Luke 6:27-28)

Reflection

Please make a list of everyone in your life that has wounded you at some points. Ask God to bring to your memory everyone that He wants you to forgive.

Is it hard to believe that God loves you, because of how many people have hurt you in your life?

You deserve a life of FREEDOM!!!

Paula Jauch

 

 

Summer Of Purpose

Summer Of Purpose 150 150 Paula

Summer Of Purpose

josh scooter

Have you ever found yourself caught off guard when summer rolls around? Then you had regrets of not having an action plan in place?

I KNOW I have many times! Yikes, this was NOT good!

This summer I wanted to make sure I was prepared with a plan. (Not that it will always go my way.) 🙂

I just wanted to make sure I had something in place to refer back to when I felt overwhelmed, like a schedule or activities to do.

In the past years when I didn’t have a plan in place it led me to feeling out of control and everything else around me was spinning out of control, including my children! Not good!

This usually led me to burying my face in a bag of cookies or chips. But this usually never solved the problem, so this year I am going with plan B and that is my action plan to have a “summer with a purpose!” I would like to share with you how I am going to TRY to have myself ready and prepared.

Take care of ME! If momma’s not happy, then everyone else around me is picking up my vibes. I will get to bed early, so I can wake up early and have my quiet time. If I am doing really good, I will get in 30 minutes of activity. I will spend 3 days of week writing until 12pm. I have asked my oldest son to baby-sit while I head to the library.

 Monday-Friday the kids have to read for 15 minutes a day. They have to get in 30 minutes of activity, which they can choose. Anything from running, soccer, basketball, bike riding or walking the dog. Two days out of the week they have to do some sort of math online.
 

My husband and I have got a plan in place for summer time bed schedules. My 7-year-old heads to bed on school nights at 8:30pm and we upped it to 9:30pm. My 16 year old almost 17, heads to bed at 10:30pm on school nights and we upped his bedtime to midnight. We have put some parental control on our Internet to keep us all safe.

 I have got a few phone numbers from other parents to have play dates with my 7 year old.  We will spend time at the YMCA swimming, playing basketball. My 7 year old can go in the daycare and play while I workout.
 

I have already put some phone calls into friends that having swimming pools. We have plenty of parks to go to. Depending on the weather is how we will determine what activity to do for the day.
 

Don’t forget we are a TEAM and we ALL help around the house. I have made it clear what daily chores are. Like helping with dinner and taking out the trash and then there are their weekly chores, like cleaning their bedrooms and bathrooms.
 

I hope this information is helpful! Please don’t look at it and feel overwhelmed and please don’t think for a minute I will master this perfectly! I just know myself, I can’t think straight when I feel overwhelmed and kids are coming to me saying, “Mom, I’m bored. What can I do? Can I go to my friends house?” I’m sure you understand where I am coming from!

 

Friends, most importantly enjoy time with your children and make it a summer of purpose!

 

Blessings,mom and josh

Paula Jauch

What If God Speaks To You?

What If God Speaks To You? 150 150 Paula

What If God Speaks To You?

God speaks

 

What if I would of never left my job? What if I would of never listened to the call? What if I would of let all my weaknesses hold me back? I found myself in the spring of 2014 sensing that there is something more that I wanted to do with my life. I sensed that GOD was asking me to take a step FAITH.

 

On a Sunday afternoon I was driving to work and I heard God speak to me, so I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote these words. “Paula, I want you to help my people, but it is not going to look like this.” I was currently working for a weight-loss company. I came home that day and shared it with my husband. Ironically, he felt God was saying the same thing to him. We prayed about it for a few weeks and I made a decision to put in my two-week notice.

 

Here I am today a year and a few months later.

 

I want to share with you what my journey has been like.

 

When I first left my job I had no idea what to do with myself. It was a BIG adjustment for me. SO to be honest with you, I spent the next two months trying to find some type of work I could be a part of and every time God closed the door. My husband who was very patient and loving just sat back and let me wrestle through my new adventure. When I would talk to him about it, he would always say, “why don’t you just enjoy this time off?” But for some odd reason I couldn’t get it out of my head that it was okay to not work and stay home for a while.

 

Once I was able to slow my mind down, then I was able to start slowing the body down. And what this eventually did was bring some issues to the surface that needed to be dealt with.

 

Why was I worrying about work? Now that I look back I have “NO” idea!

 

I had a lot going on inside of me and around me, but I just couldn’t see what was going on when my life was going at such a fast pace. When I stopped working and found peace with it, there were a lot of things sitting in front of me waiting to be addressed.

 

The first one I had to tackle was my eating disorder. I had hid this dark secret for 20 years. But I couldn’t slow down to address it because I was a single mom before I met my husband and I needed to put food on the table for my four children. As I was managing everyday life, my life was crumbling around me.

 

My health wasn’t good and I needed to address some underlying pain that I had buried since I was a child and this was the #1 cause of my eating disorder. I needed to start making up time with my children and build better relationships with them because when you are working all the time and struggling with an addiction it is extremely hard to meet their emotional needs. I needed to get a plan of action in place and I had to make time in my life to do this. This journey that I have been on has not been easy, but it has been worth it. There is SO much I could share about it, but I will WAIT to put it in my upcoming BOOK. I now can see why GOD said, “ You are going to help my people and it is going to look different.” I now have a passion to write a book and share my story about what it was like growing up in abuse and alcoholism. I will share with others how I healed and forgave myself from all the other self-destructive behaviors that I have done.

 

I am SO glad that I listened to the call of GOD and not the other voices that said, “What will everyone think of you? Who do you think you are to leave corporate America and start dreaming BIG? What makes you qualified? What if you fail?”

 

Oh. My! If I would of listened to all these voices that constantly played in my head, I wouldn’t be healed of a 20year addiction! I wouldn’t be writing a book! I wouldn’t be Life Coaching!

 

I wouldn’t be dreaming of all the next steps I want to take with GOD to help others be SET-FREE!!

 

Friends! Will you start dreaming with me? You can go to my website to sign up for my 14 day Journey to Freedom mini devotional and at the bottom here is a link to sign up to be the first to know about my upcoming book!

 

https://paulajauch.com/Give-God-Your-Weight/

 

Blessings,

 

Paula Jauch